I can't resist the looks of you

Ohh yes..college life has begun and I am now doing my foundation in science, though I still waiting for the appeal from the government offered scholarship to the oversea. I was actually came early for my registration and because of that I got  first floor for the staying in the hostel. The guys stay in Angsana while the girls in Raffelsia. Ohh I forgot to tell that my university;s name is Universiti Teknologi Mara at Puncak Alam.


The concept of the hostel is like an apartment. Thus, mine have 5 rooms. So, 10 people will have to share 3 bathrooms. I find with it. When I came in to the house, of course I met new faces . I just shake hands with each of them and introduce myself although it's kinda awkward since they came from other state mostly.


Suddenly, there's this person and I was like :O..,Lets just assume that person is Q. Previously, I already saw Q and I don't know why  I was hoping that Q will become my housemate and there Q is..my wish just came true. Only god knows what I felt that day. At first, Q was a bit unfriendly towards the other housemates. Who knows maybe Q have no choice but to come here to pursue study. 


A few days later, I remembered until now that Q asked me whether Q can borrow my iron  since tomorrow all the students need to wear formal. I gave to Q. Q  gave the iron back to me and said 'thank you'. During that, my heart beat faster. Q left from my room and my heart beat back to normal. Ohh gawd, don't tell me that........Ohh ya I forgot to tell until today Q just borrowed my iron, Quran and nail clipper. Shit for the girlish appearance on  the nail clipper.


I never saw Q smile or even laugh until this fine day, my housemates and I became knowing each other ..I can't really remember actually but one of my housemates was making some silly joke and Q  smiled and laughed.I got to admit it was funny but the only thing I can't admit was when I saw Q smiled  with joy, Q just made my heart melt like seriously. Come on ....I can't be like this. Q's smile until now I can't forgeQt it. Damn it..damn it.


Why Q always in my mind? I know Q will assume me just as a friend and not more than that of course. But...but..but ,,,why I can't resist the looks of Q,..Everytime I kept thinking about Q. The worst part is when I kept seeing  the shoe racks just to know whether Q has came back from class or not. What on earth is happening? 


I really need to erase this feeling,, but almost everyday I will have to encounter Q. Q's eyes made me always looking elsewhere while talking to Q. Gawwdd..,,seriously everytime Q's passes me, Q' always took my breath away.Even I just wish Q will hug me. Come on la Joe(me) ,,,wake up.


Now, I was trying my best to avoid Q but it doesn't work at all. It's still the same. If only Q felt the same way ,,it will be easier  hmmm...I like=love the way Q's smile,walk, act and dress..but too bad I will never get Q and you know why..What should I do? Should I not talk to Q ,so that I will forget Q? 




I making the font purple because I think Q likes purple in colour.

Lovesad

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I though would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

By Richard Marx, Right Here Waiting For You

'Tag You It'

As time goes by, I learnt something that I think it is really important because this will prevent from making your life miserable with sorrow.I used to like playing tag with my friends. In fact, almost all children around this world had played tag before. This is the simplest game ever because everyone can play and it is costless.The best part is your relationship between your friends will become stronger as you ran to your friend to 'tag'.This will increase your stamina level too.

Just now usually happened in children.I think I just discovered this game will bet functioning differently if it is happening among teenagers. Haha! Get it right. Well I saw almost everytime this boy and this girl like to tag each other in the classroom during time interval. You bet they are my friends. Some people said usually when everytime they did like that, it is because they already like each other. I mean love emotion has rise between them that finally the love emotion from each of them will become romance that bloom among them.Is this true?If usually a boy and a girl(teenagers) almost everytime tag each other, they are actually in love?

Do not know why but I became jealous when they always did like that. I wonder why?They are actually my friends. My heart will become fragile as in that time, I felt my heart broke. I am not sure how to overcome this problem. I just want to make sure that nothing will stop me from concentrating on my big exam this coming November.

A Strange Feeling

It has been awhile.Hey! readers out there,have you people wondered how a person fall in love? And I felt curious for those lovers out there on how they confessed each other about their true feeling to each other.I know some of you will tell me that I may be a little crazy but who cares.

About this person really made me felt different.I cant stop thinking about that person. I will be missing that person if that person is not around. I really could not forget the way that person smile and laugh because of my jokes. That person actually have made my life more useful if in terms of religion. Almost every night, my mind always in the fantasy with the present of the person. I really wondered why I cant look to that person's face while I can look freely to my other friends' face. That person always amazed me. When my phone rang and when I look to it and it was that person's name, my heartbeat rate increases .Why only to that person?I just want to know what is happening to me and one more thing I can't stand watching that person with other people. Lastly, when that person is around with me for several reason, I always felt safer and definitely very happy of course.Is this what so you called *OV*?

Best Friend+Neighbour=Enemy (Part 1)

It a was a very hot weather.I can feel the sun rays penetrating in my skin and this made me uncomfortable since as you know that I hate standing under the biggest fire ball which appears only during day time.According to my watch that I was wearing on my left wrist,the short needle was pointed between two and three and the long needle was pointed at three."Ohh no,I kinda late because of the traffic jam and made almost all the vehicles like turtles going back to the sea from the beach".I rushed through the destination that I and couple of my friends promised to meet.The jacket that I wore actually made my body felt warm when I went inside the building because almost every angle in the room have air conditioner.
It seems that I am not the last person among with my friends who arrived at this building."Ohh yaa,I forget to tell you that this building is actually a place to study since you already know that my exam are coming".At first,I was a little bit frustrated because the teacher that will teach us cannot make it through here.I do not know why but suddenly the bright side come when unexpected guests came to join me and my friends to study.Actually the unexpected guests are not acquaintance nor strangers.Well at least the feeling of frustrated is gone for now.
As the clock that hang on the wall ticking where in the room that we sat and study,the time already showed it was half pass three.I am still manage to concentrate on doing the main objective of the day while some just doing other things.I think I understood because not all people can maintain their concentration on studying at certain period.During this time,this place was actually not as desolate as before.So, all kind of discussion can be heard softly not loud.
While I asking one of my friend about the subject that we discussed,maybe because I have a strong sense of hearing,suddenly,my emotions became mixed when I heard someone told about let just call my embarrassed and guilty moment to one of this study group members.I was shocked and of course mad for what that person just did(I just pretended that I do not know anything).After that,my concentration just lost and I just cannot study anymore.I had tried my best to hide all those things but I think some of them noticed on my changes.I just do not want that thing to be spread to everyone.Well if that thing already spread,I know who is to be blame and for the readers ,someday you will know why my title is 'Best Friend+Neighbour=Enemy'....see you in next part..

Sweetness Outside,Salty Inside

My life....I wonder how some people can live up to 100 years old with no debt,disease,problems and with a long journey in life that they had already overpass it with equanimity,patience,challenge and obstacles out there.I bet they do not waste their time in their life because they spent their time although it took about a second but they used it wisely by doing something that benefit their lifestyle.Well,this people usually smile and rarely melancholy because maybe they felt sad only when their loves one rest in piece.Of course everyone will be downhearted when his or her family members,closes friend and cousins die accept for some people who do not have sentiment towards others.Even Carl Gustav Jung,a Swiss psychiatrist said that "a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness,and the word happy lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity."This people is pure sweet because inside of them,I do not seen the salty part of their life.

As for me,now suddenly I felt grateful so much to god because until now my problems are not so complicated and my asthma is not worse than pass few years ago.Furthermore,my family could not be more better since I think we are a mirthful family.So,salty can be as sweet as candy if you can solve any kind of problems with positive altitude in yourself.Remember this,PEOPLE.

I shocked.My heartbeat stop for a second.The fear in me rise.Sorrow just took control of me.My face became pale and I thought twice about my future because I am not sure whether I manage to grab with my own sweat, my ultimate goal that I wanted to achieve so much.Do you want to know why?I have symptoms having kidney stones.I noticed about this today.I am so scared,I mean really scared to death because there is a lot things that I still did not manage to do and feel it .Moreover,I also want to trace my foot on a university and of course I just do not want to loose my classmates which the persons that really made my life full of colors.The only thing I could do is to drink 3 litre of of water everyday.I was like "wow that is too much".That is the only way to cure this before it get worse.I really hope I can go through this and I really do not want certain place become flood because of me.I may be sweetness outside but actually my inside is salty and no one noticed it...

Exams

When it comes to school examination,mostly everybody will react "huh exam again,why do we need to have exam in our life,arrgghhh shitt exam" accept for some people who thinks that exam is fun(bweekk) not me,well that usually nerds and geeks.I know,I know the joy will be at the end of the road which is if you study smart not study hard and you passed with flying colours but why we have to hard-to-get and enjoy later??I wish there is another way to do this kind of stuff.Well lucky for those genius out there because they do not have to really STUDY,get it.Their brain are quite different from us..Before I want to end this topic,I just want to say that everybody must go through exams whether he or she like it or not.Exams will determine who will be the leadership of all types of careers for the next generation.My final exam will be on 15/10/2010 and I guess I better study now.. :D

Without

Without your love,I will frustrated

Without your smile,the sky will be dark

Without you,I like split in half

Without you,I not sure I can continue my journey to overcome so many 'pancaroba' out there

Without you being with me,I cannot find my way...

But I had tried to accept the fact that we maybe just friends

But I do not know why its so hard to accept that and it makes things worst

Well,the only thing I could do is to pray for you so that you will be happy as always with that lucky peson...